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9/30/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 14


"Did your mom forgive you yet?" I was talking to Gaige, it had been several days but it was hard to find the time anymore.

"She forgave me, she even wants to help plan the wedding." Gaige and I were planning on having a small wedding, but I wasn't so sure how that would go if my mom was helping.

"That's great, I told you she'd forgive you. Still mad at me?"

"Depends."

"What does it depend on?"

I laughed "On how the wedding planning goes, I already want to kill her."

"Oh, I see. That bad huh?"

"She's trying to talk me into a big wedding, I can't convince her that a small one would be just fine."

"What's wrong with a big wedding? I don't care, but I'm sure deep down you want one"

"Yeah I do, but we can't afford it. Besides are you sure you'd be ok with a big wedding, without having any family to be there?"

"I'm not going to have family there either way. As long as you are there, that's all I care about. Make it whatever you want. I get to watch you coming down that aisle, and nothing else is going to matter, because you'll steal the show." I liked that he hadn't changed since we first met, even if his lines seemed kind of cheesy. I knew he meant them.

"Awww.... I love you. Even if you're so lame."

"Ouch, I compliment you and you call me lame."

"I love your lameness."

"Maybe I'll have to be even lamer then."

I found my mom after hanging up with Gaige, she wanted to take me dress shopping. It would be easier now that I didn't have to worry about trying to plan a really small wedding. I'd been expecting to end up getting married at city hall in plain clothes, honestly. I knew we still could afford much though, but I was excited to get a dress and maybe have a slightly nicer wedding.

I was overwhelmed looking at dresses. There were so many beautiful dresses, many way out of budget, but it was hard to decide where to start looking. My mom seemed to have some ideas though and  had found one already for me to try. It was one of those that would be well over our budget. "Mom, it's beautiful please put it back though. I can't afford that." She kept coming closer with it "Mom, Your making me want it more... I really can't afford it, put it back"

"Nonsense, just try it on. You'll look beautiful in it."

"Mom!" I tried to turn away so I wouldn't look at it anymore, but I couldn't. "Oh fine!"
I squeezed into it, but it was a bit tight. Still it looked amazing, I knew it was the dress I wanted. "Mom. Why'd you make me try this one? I love it, but it's way over budget."

"Don't you worry about that. I'll help"

I laughed "Mom... you can't afford it either. Are you insane?"

"I've been saving for your wedding since you were born. I never expected you'd be able to afford a nice wedding without some help."

"Mom, you can't spend all your savings on me."

"That's what I saved for I'm not spending it on anything else. If this is the dress you want, it's the dress you'll get. Is it the dress you want?"

"Yes..but..." I really didn't want her to spend so much on me, but before I could say anything she gone off to find the sales lady. Just shopping for a dress was more effort than I expected the whole wedding to be, and I knew it wasn't about to get any easier.

9/29/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 13.


Her angry gaze travel down from my face and stopped where I was holding Haylie, at which point she started to smile. "You know I think she's a cuter baby then you were, but she looks a lot like you did as well. Her daddy must be very handsome, he sounds like such a nice boy too, seems like you are doing okay out here."

Hopefully Haylie could keep that smile on her face, because I wasn't going to be able to hide anything any longer. "Mom, Gaige isn't....uh... well... Gaige isn't their father." It was hard to tell her, I knew everything else would come out know, and felt ashamed.

"Oh" It took her a moment to process what that meant. "Rachelle, what have you done? Does he know this? You guys have been dating a long time haven't you?"

"Yes mom, we've been together since before, and yes he knows. I told him right away. It's complicated mom, it's not quite like it sounds." I avoided the fact that Gaige and I were more than dating, I figured it would be a bit too much for her to handle at that moment.

"Well than what is it, if it isn't how it sounds? He sounds like a very nice boy, and very forgiving. I wouldn't reccomend risking your relationship with him."

I sighed. "Just come in, I'll go put Haylie down, and we can talk. I don't think we should have this conversation standing in the doorway."

I went to find my mom a few minutes later. She was sitting on the sofa, she wasn't smiling anymore, but she didn't look angry either she looked confused, and hurt.  "Ok mom, are you sure you want to hear the whole story? Wether I tell you it or not, you are probably not going to be very happy with me, just about different things" I knew I couldn't tell her without revealing that Gaige and I were engaged, and I knew it would hurt her, she was already hurting from the fact that I hadn't told her I was pregnant.

"I'm not sure I want to know, but I'd also like to know. I'd like to hear that it isn't what it sounds, I don't want to think of you as that kind of girl. So just tell me."

I told her the whole story, and waited for her reaction. It was long wait, she sat in silence for several minutes trying to take in what I had said. Her tone when she finally spoke suggested that she had given up. "Rachelle, what happened to you? I can understand everything else but I can't understand why you've kept so much from me. Maybe it would be best for me to go home, if you can't be honest with me."

"Mom, don't leave. I'm sorry I just didn't know how to tell you anything. It wasn't to hurt you. Please stay." I only dreaded her coming because I dreaded her finding everything out. I still missed her. She didn't respond and sat perfectly still looking very hurt. "Ok, well I'm going to go check on the babies. Please don't leave."

I shut the door when I got into the nursery. I was actaully just looking for an excuse to get away and call Gaige. "Hey honey.... you mad?"

"Yes, I'm mad! Why did you call her?!"

"She called to talk to you, I answered. She asked why there was crying in the background, I told her.  She was the one who suggested coming to help, I just agreed. I want you to have help, but I knew you wouldn't be able to avoid telling her everything once she got there. It's beyond time for her to know Rachelle, she deserves that."

"Yes, well she's extremely hurt right now and I don't think she'll forgive me. You shouldn't have told her. You should have let me call her back and break it to her myself. I don't think it made it any easier to hear it from you."

"That's not my fault Rachelle, and you know it. If you had told her everything from the start it wouldn't have been an issue. She was going to be hurt anway. She'll come around, trust me."

"No she won't Gaige, she wants to leave already Gaige...she won't talk to me at all now. Please just stay out of my business Gaige, before you mess everything else up."

"You'll forgive me. Think about it though, would you stay mad at Haylie or Ian for any reason? Would you cut them out of your life like that?"

"No, of course not!"

"See, she'll come around."

"I hope you're right. I should go see if she's still there and how she's doing. Love you."

"Love you too, and it'll be ok."

I hung up, he was probably right but I still worried, I'd never seen her so upset before. I imagined my dads reaction would be even worse. I sighed and sat down looking ahead at the cribs, I wasn't sure if I actually wanted to check on her yet. "Oh my babies, mommy loves you no matter what, but please don't ever do this to me."

9/25/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 12


I'd been sleeping when Gaige arrived but awoke to see him holding Ian and watching me, I smiled at him. He smiled back, but I could tell that he was disappointed and was trying to hide it. It was obvious that Carlos was the father, but it was also obvious that Gaige loved them very much already even in his disappointment

I had been sleeping when Gaige arrived, but awoke to a tender kiss on the forehead. I smiled at him "Hey"

He smiled back but I could see the disappointment hidden behind the smile, he had seen them, he knew. "Hey, How are you feeling?"

"I'm tired, but ok. You saw them I take it. I'm really sorry." I started crying. I felt bad, but the extreme exhaustion just made it worse.

Gaige gave me a comforting look and stroked my cheek. "Don't cry, don't apologize. They may not be mine biologically, but they will be mine in every other way. I love you, and I love them. I will be there for them and for you, every step of the way. I will be the one to love them, to comfort them when they are sad or scared, to punish them when they misbehave. I will dance with Haylie at her wedding and teach Ian to play catch. They will see the difference in the mirror, but the will never feel it in their hearts."

I just cried even more, he was amazing. He was so understanding and he always knew just what to say. I started imagining all of us as a family, along with a child that Gaige had fathered. I guess it had been a dream, as I woke up and found out I was able to go home now, they were just waiting for me to wake up.

I was excited, and everything seemed so perfect. I had two beautiful babies, Gaige was by side, and we were all on our way to a brand new house. It was nothing special, we'd gotten it extremely cheap because it many repairs. After paying for repairs we didn't have much left to make it look really nice. It was home though, it was our own, and it felt great.

It was much different at home then at the hospital, Gaige's smile no longer masked his disappointment. Being at home with the babies and spending more time with them, seemed to get rid of his disappointment. I knew he said he'd love them anyway, and I never doubted that he would try.... but I worried about how successful he would be. I had no reason to doubt him anymore. He never let Haylie out of his sight, he was protecting her as any father would protect their baby girl. The way he looked at Ian was priceless, he looked at Ian probably the same way I looked at Haylie, they already had the father-son bond.

Gaige only stayed for a few days before he had to go back to class, and it didn't seem so perfect and exciting anymore. I started freaking out, but Gaige tried to assure me that I'd only have to be on my own for a couple days. He had enlisted some help for me, I had a feeling who the help was. I did not like it.

9/23/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 11


I'd been feeling sick for a while, and had just been contributing it to all the stress I had been under, but Gaige convinced me to go to the doctors. Even if it was stress something needed to be done about it. I hated going to doctors but I knew Gaige would drag me down there if I didn't go, I wouldn't be able to get out of it. I wasn't at all prepared for what I found out. I was pregnant, with twins.

I didn't know how to tell Gaige, I didn't know how he'd take it. I knew the thought of ever having kids terrified him, he wanted to adopt when the time came, he didn't want me to die like his mom did. I tried to convince him it was because she sick anyway, he couldn't expect every pregnancy to be doomed because she had died, but it was no use. I also knew that he hated the thought that I had ever been with anybody else, and since I didn't know if they were his I worried that he would hate them too.

I guess my worry showed, because Gaige started freaking out as soon as I got home. "What did they tell you Rachelle? You look like they told you're dying or something. You aren't are you? Please don't tell me it's that bad, I can't lose you Rachelle... I can't. I'll never be able to handle that."

He always made things so much more difficult. "I'm not dying or anything... I'm pregnant... with twins."

He looked happy and I was suprised. "That's great Rachelle, just look after yourself. Okay?"

"Well you took that better than I thought, what happened to your theory that pregnancy is just a death wish? and you do realize you might not be the father, right?"

"I guess that thought that we'll have a family is just so great. I'm going to be worried about you the whole time, but having a family is going to be so great. I don't like the thought that I might not be the father, but I'm still going to love them and you." I was relieved that he had taken it so well, and that he'd accept the twins no matter what.

The time flew by and before I knew it the twins were on the way. Gaige had gone back to school, but promised he'd come home to see the babies when they were born, so I called him before leaving for the hospital. He wouldn't be there for the birth, but I was glad he would come down to see us for a couple days. I also called Carlos, it had taken a lot to track him down since I couldn't remember his name at the time.
He'd made it clear that he didn't want anything to do with me or the twins even if they were his, but I figured he should know that they were on the way in case he had changed his mind. He hadn't.

I had one of each, a girl and a boy, Haylie and Ian. Having a boy and a girl was going to be great, and they were the cutest babies I'd ever seen. I couldn't wait for Gaige to arrive, and for us to be together as a family for the first time. I was so happy and loved them so much already that it didn't matter who the father was, though I could tell by looking at them.

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 10


Gaige didn't look pleased when I walked in, and I braced myself to be yelled at again but he didn't speak. "You wanted to talk, now you aren't going to say anything. I mean I have lots I could say, but I figured you'd want to go first."

"I'm just trying to decide if I really want to know the truth or not. I'm assuming that you slept with this guy, where did you think we stood when you did so? I know we yelled and I know you were hurt and angry, but neither of us said we were breaking up."

I felt even worse, if it was possible, he was going to ask all the tough questions. "I didn't know what to think. You told me you hoped your next fiance wouldn't be so stupid and self-centered, I mean you never said you want to break up but that made it seem like you did."

"I guess I can see how that left you wondering. What about all the times I called you, you couldn't have answered one of those calls and found out, or called me and found out?"

"I don't even remember you phoning, I don't remember anything but waking up in his apartment. I don't know why I didn't answer... it's like yesterday never even happened for me, I don't remember it at all."

"I see, this is the one I really don't want to ask. I really don't know if I can handle the answer"

I knew what he was going to ask, the expression on his face said it all. It made me feel horrible that he had to ask it, that he did already know. "Gaige... I love you, only you. This guy doesn't mean anything. I don't know him. I don't know how I ended up there, but I can guess alcohol had a lot to do with it. I do know I couldn't get out of his apartment fast enough after I woke up, and that the only thing I though about was how stupid I was... and how I dreaded telling you because I was afraid I'd lose you. I love you Gaige, I will always love you and you only."

He sighed and sat back down on the sofa, he looked relieved. "That's all I really wanted to know. Just don't do that ever again, you scared the crap out of me. I don't want to lose you to somebody else. I do however want to go beat this guy up."

I laughed and sat down with him. "Ok...but let's not worry about that right now, you can beat him up later"
We sat and talked for hours about what would happen now that everything had changed so much. We agreed to postpone the wedding. Summer was coming up fast, and it just didn't seem like good timing anymore... I also hadn't told my parents yet. Gaige would finish the semester online so he could we could be closer together and be there for each other while we tried to cope with Rose's  death. We talked about trying to find a house of our own, it didn't seem right to stay in Rose's guest house anymore, and the main house seemed too empty without her.

9/22/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 9


I don't remember anything between storming out on Gaige, and waking up the following day beside some guy that I didn't know. I didn't know where I was or how I'd gotten there, but what had happened there was obvious. Gaige was right about me being stupid at least. I'd messed everything up, it was unclear where our relationship stood, but I was in the bed of another man. Wherever it stood, it would definitely be over when he found out.

I tried to get out of the bed without waking him up, I just wanted to gather up my clothes and get out of there. Maybe I could forget it ever even happened. I heard him groan before speaking "You're an early riser. You aren't leaving are you?"

"Look I have a fiance, or I had a fiance, I don't really know. I do know that I love him, and being here is a mistake either way. I'm sorry but I have to go."

"Ah yes, I think I heard plenty about him last night. You seemed pretty mad though, something about how he's the stupid self-centered one. I don't really know what happened but he sounds like a jerk, I don't know why you care about him."

"He's not usually like that. He's really very sweet, he's just upset right now. His grandmother died, she was his only family. I'm upset too, she was my friend... she did a lot for me, which is why I was so hurt by what he said. I'm still mad, but I love him enough to try and work it out." I didn't leave him a chance to respond, I just left, this could go on all day otherwise.

I pulled out my phone once I got into the hall, I wanted to call Gaige. I didn't know what I would tell him, but I couldn't keep wondering where we stood. It wasn't fair for either of us to be lead on one way or the other. My voice mail inbox was full, Gaige had been trying to call me. I didn't bother listening to any of the messages, I just called him, it would be easier.

I didn't even get the chance to say hello "Rachelle, You called, I thought you were ignoring me. I'm so sorry, please just come home."

I didn't want to tell him, but I had to do so now, before I went all the way to be yelled at. He could yell over the phone and it could be over with a lot sooner. "Gaige... I'm standing outside another guys apartment right now. I swear I don't even remember ending up here, and I just want to be with you. I'm really sorry."

It took him several minutes to respond, and I felt sick the whole time. I dreaded what he would say, and the silence only made it harder. "Just come home, we can talk when you get here" I couldn't tell if he was angry or what, but my stomach felt even worse.

9/19/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 8


I tried to fight back my tears as I washed the dishes, Rose had died shortly after I called Gaige to tell him he needed to come home. I wanted to cry some more, she was an amazing person and it didn't seem fair that she had died, but I knew Gaige would be home any minute. I needed to be strong for him, I couldn't imagine how hard it was on him, and it would only hurt me more to watch him hurt.

I turned around as he came in, he looked awful. "Glad you made it home safe, I was worried about you driving down here when you are so upset. Are you hungry? I just ate some leftovers from earlier, but I can cook something if you want." He just walked over to the bed and plopped down into it, didn't even acknowledge me in any way. "Ok I'll take that as a no. If you're hungry later just let me know what to make, and if there's anything else you want or need just let me know." Still no reponse, he appeared to be sleeping, but I figured it was just an act so I'd leave him alone.

I sighed and turned back around to finish the dishes. I just wanted to hug him and tell him everything would be okay, but that obviously wasn't what he wanted. I decided to just go for a walk and give him his space, maybe it would calm me down a bit as well. I called out to Gaige before I left "Hon, I'm going out for a walk, if you want to come you're more than welcome to. If not I have my cell so you can call me if you need or want anything. Love you." He snored, it was more response than I figured I'd get, but it still didn't convince me that he was asleep.

I had no idea where my walk would lead me, but something unseen...something from my heart wanted me to follow it, so I did. It lead me to the prosper room. It made sense really, it was where I'd fallen in love Gaige... It held the memories of the happiest time of my life. Though nothing could totally remove the pain of Rose's death, the flood of memories did ease the pain a bit. I couldn't go in wearing my everyday wear, it was a formal club, and they made no exceptions. Soaking up the happiness seemed desperatly needed, so I went into the bathroom and dug in my bag, I always had something with me that I could pass off as formal wear. I had learned from the many times I got last minute calls to attend formal events, to always be prepared. When you see celebrities with massive bags, it because they do the same thing.

After changing I stared to make my way to the lounge and was struck with a moment of nearly crippling pain. I just wanted to curl up in a ball somewhere and cry until somehow the pain stopped, but of course the paparazzi would be watching ready to take a picture of my melt down. So I just acted as if I wasn't really hurting, and went to order a drink... maybe it would help the moment pass a bit faster. It didn't so I tried another drink, and another...and...another. Eventually the pain stopped and I was up on the counter dancing with delight... Delight of what I don't know...delight of alcohol I guess. Turns out fancy clubs don't like such behaviour and they tossed me out.

I stummbled into the quest house a little while later, Gaige was up and waiting watching the door.

"Gaige!" I yelled, and then proceed to whisper "ohhh.... what are you looking at? Am I missing something really awesomely cool." Apparently drunk people are dumb, and I am no exception.

"I'm looking at you" He was being extremely serious, and was obviously angry. I however just giggled, I took it as a compliment at the time. Like I said drunk people are dumb. "Not like that, It's 2am where the hell have you been?"

I giggled again "I just went for a walk, no need to be grumpy" and then I pouted. He tossed something at me, which hit my face before slipping into my hands. "Hey that hurt, you're not very nice."

"Well maybe next time you'll think twice about lying to me, unless you have some other explanation for that photo." He was yelling, though I didn't notice at the time.

I looked at what he had thrown, it was his phone displaying a picture of me joyfully dancing at the club. I giggled again "Oh that... I just had a few drinks at the club that I went to when I went on my walk." I paused "Hey! don't call me a liar!I told you I was going for I walk, I walked there, I walked back. I never said that that I didn't stop at the club. What's the problem anyway?"

He was even angier now, and I definitely could tell no matter how drunk and stupid I was. "The problem is that you have a fiance, and you shouldn't be out at the club until 2am dressed like that unless I am with you. Especially when you are so drunk. What the hell made you so happy anyway? You realize somebody just died right? Or are you too stupid to understand what that means. My grandmother was extremely kind and helpful to you. She gave you a job, and a place to live. She treated you just like you were her grandchild, and that was before we even met. She did it because she cared about you, not because you were involved with me. You don't seem to care at all, about what she did for you, or the fact that she is dead. You're just an ungrateful little brat. You don't seem to care either, about how I'm feeling, wandering off to the clubs when I need your support more than anything. Maybe my next fiance won't be so stupid and self-centered."

"I... You..." I tried to hold back my tears, I was hurt and I was angry. I knew he was hurting, but that didn't give him reason to treat me that way. "If you think that I don't care, you are wrong. I do care, I know what rose did for me, she never went unthanked or unappreciated. She was my friend, and I was hers. She was my strength when I missed you and wanted give up on everything until you came back, and I was hers. We had a lot in common, and I feel like part of me has died as well. I wanted to stay here with you, but you seemed more interested in being alone, so I left you alone. I had my cellphone you could have called me, I would have come home. I told you that before I left when you pretending to sleep to avoid me. I was trying to be strong so I could look after you, because I knew you'd be taking it even harder and it hurts me to see you hurt. I love you, or I did love you, but right now I'm not so sure. I know this is hard on you, but that doesn't give you a reason to treat me like crap." He just stood there looking at me with a stupid expression on his face. I couldn't tell if it was hurt, surprise, or more anger...or perhaps a mix of the three. I turned around and walked out the door, slamming it as hard as I could behind me.

9/18/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 7

Rose told me that I was throwing my life away, I was too young to keep myself locked up at home, and all because of a boy... who loved me dearly and would be back in a couple months... I wouldn't lose him. She insisted I had nothing to be sad about and I needed to put a smile on my face and go and have some fun for a change.

Rose wanted her garden re-planted, so as the plants became barren I was to just dispose of the plant and not re-plant it until the rest had become barren. Normally I replaced plants as they became barren, but rose figured it would be nice to rearrange the garden, maybe plant something different, and have some sprinklers set up to make watering easier. So I was spending less and less time in the garden as it shrunk. Rose figured it would be a great opportunity to meet up with some of the sims around town and see who would be interested in buying fruits and vegetables from her when her new garden was ready, and what they would like so that I would know what to plant. She gave me contact info for people she dealt with in the past, and sent me on my way. I knew she only sent me instead of doing it herself, because it meant I'd have to get out of the house and talk to some new people.

I had no idea that she knew so many celebrities, and just my brief conversations with them had people I didn't even know looking up to me. Everybody wondered where I had come from and what was so special about me, that I was just all of the sudden talking to half the towns celebrities. Soon there were paparazzi hanging around the house, and taking pictures as I tended to the dying garden... I hated being seen in my grimy garden clothes with a bunch of dead plants around me. I was offered money to work out at the gym, not that I needed to, they insisted. 

I was also invited to some pool party to flaunt my even more amazing bikini body. That bothered me a bit to be honest, growing up on a farm we didn't think about "bikini bodies", we were very modest. I guess that had stuck with me, and although I went I was uncomfortable the whole time. Of course a night-time pool party at a house without a pool, and in which the host is in a skimpy nightgown... isn't particularly comforting in the first place.

I got many offers to try drinks at club. I wasn't sure about doing so the first time, but I did anyway, and I enjoyed it enough to do it whenever I was asked to. I usually only had one of whatever I was asked to try and just mingled a bit, I was enjoying making friends. If I had more than one drink though, enough to loosen me up a bit, I would start telling ghost stories...everybody loved them, but I felt lame afterwards. Who tells ghost stories at a club?

I still found time to talk to Gaige on the phone everday. He was happy that I was having fun, and told me not to worry if I was too busy to talk to him....as long as I didn't forget him altogether. He was just happy I was finding the happiness I'd come here in search of, and he'd understand. His classes were going great, and he wanted to volunteer at the hospital over the summer, just doing stuff like cheering up sick little kids but getting a feel for the hospital and seeing how things worked at the same time. 

Gaige talked about how he wanted to get married in the summer, he wanted to make me his wife before he lost me. We'd only been one date but we talked so much, and it already felt like I knew him so well, I excitedly agreed that it would be a great idea. We just had to figure out how to break it to Rose, and to my parents who hadn't even met him yet. We both avoided conversations with Rose, until we figured out how to tell her. I knew it was hard on Gaige avoiding the only family he had, and it was painfully difficult to call him and tell him needed to come home as soon as he could... if he wanted to be able to say good-bye to her.

9/15/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 6


Gaige and I worked in the garden together, it was nice to have the help with the increased work, and I couldn't let him do it all himself either. It was awkward at first, but eventually the awkwardness disappeared. We talked about anything and everything, and the time just flew by. I was going to miss him when he had to go back to his university, the help was great, but the conversation was even better. He was my first friend around my age in Bridgeport, and one of very few in my life so far.

I was beginning to hope that one day we would be more than just friends, but I still suspected that he didn't. He just wanted to make me feel better, break the tension, after catching me in my towel. So, it came as a surprised when he asked me to the club with him. It was one of the fancier clubs in Bridgeport, The Prosper Room. You had to be a celebrity to get it, but Gaige insisted that he knew the bouncer and he'd let us in. I certainly wasn't going to say no,  but I had to scramble to find something nice to wear. I ended up buying a new dress, because I had hardly any clothes that were suitable to be worn outside the garden.

The way that Gaige smiled as he told me how beautiful I looked made me feel amazing, but scared at the same time. It was a new experience for me. After a couple drinks at the club, Gaige convinced me to dance with him. I was a horrible dancer,  and I felt like a fool, but Gaige insisted I looked cute dancing.  I didn't believe him at all, but those lies always make girls feel good, it made me feel good.

Gaige just used cheesy over-used pick-up lines all evening, I knew he was goofing around but I played along. I laughed and told how bad he was at flirting, and that was coming from the socially awkward farm girl! He winked and told me his kissing would make up for it, and without even thinking I dared him to prove it. I felt like an idiot, he was just goofing around, and I was probably going overboard. I went to hide my face in my hands, but he grabbed them and pulled me in. He definitely wasn't lying, it was flawless, it was the most incredible moment of my life.

I was really going to miss him when he went back to university, which was the next day. I just clung to him, I didn't want to let him go, or even think about him going.  I had to fall in love with him at the worst possible time.