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9/23/2011

From Farm to Fame- Chapter 10


Gaige didn't look pleased when I walked in, and I braced myself to be yelled at again but he didn't speak. "You wanted to talk, now you aren't going to say anything. I mean I have lots I could say, but I figured you'd want to go first."

"I'm just trying to decide if I really want to know the truth or not. I'm assuming that you slept with this guy, where did you think we stood when you did so? I know we yelled and I know you were hurt and angry, but neither of us said we were breaking up."

I felt even worse, if it was possible, he was going to ask all the tough questions. "I didn't know what to think. You told me you hoped your next fiance wouldn't be so stupid and self-centered, I mean you never said you want to break up but that made it seem like you did."

"I guess I can see how that left you wondering. What about all the times I called you, you couldn't have answered one of those calls and found out, or called me and found out?"

"I don't even remember you phoning, I don't remember anything but waking up in his apartment. I don't know why I didn't answer... it's like yesterday never even happened for me, I don't remember it at all."

"I see, this is the one I really don't want to ask. I really don't know if I can handle the answer"

I knew what he was going to ask, the expression on his face said it all. It made me feel horrible that he had to ask it, that he did already know. "Gaige... I love you, only you. This guy doesn't mean anything. I don't know him. I don't know how I ended up there, but I can guess alcohol had a lot to do with it. I do know I couldn't get out of his apartment fast enough after I woke up, and that the only thing I though about was how stupid I was... and how I dreaded telling you because I was afraid I'd lose you. I love you Gaige, I will always love you and you only."

He sighed and sat back down on the sofa, he looked relieved. "That's all I really wanted to know. Just don't do that ever again, you scared the crap out of me. I don't want to lose you to somebody else. I do however want to go beat this guy up."

I laughed and sat down with him. "Ok...but let's not worry about that right now, you can beat him up later"
We sat and talked for hours about what would happen now that everything had changed so much. We agreed to postpone the wedding. Summer was coming up fast, and it just didn't seem like good timing anymore... I also hadn't told my parents yet. Gaige would finish the semester online so he could we could be closer together and be there for each other while we tried to cope with Rose's  death. We talked about trying to find a house of our own, it didn't seem right to stay in Rose's guest house anymore, and the main house seemed too empty without her.