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12/29/2012

From Farm to Fame: Haylie- Chapter Seventeen


Pictures didn’t even do justice to how beautiful Hidden Springs was, it was breathtaking and pulling around the final turn before town where it all came into view made the whole trip worth it; just in that one moment. The drive had taken two days with very little time to stop and rest, I just wanted to get there and get settled in as fast as possible as the twins were very restless no matter what I did; I knew it would still be a while before they would get over that, but it would only get worse the longer the trip took, and the sooner we were there the sooner they would start to settle and adjust to our new lives. It hadn’t been an enjoyable drive either, it was only the last few hours when we’d finally started to see mountains that there had been anything exciting to see along the way, and it had only been about those same few hours that I’d had any peace and quiet when the twins finally slept.

Knowing the twins would wake up as soon as I took them out of the car, and that since they’d been sleeping for a few hours they would stay awake for a while, I just drove around town for a while, not looking for anything but just taking in the sights and enjoying the peace for a few extra minutes. People walked leisurely through the town and tended lush gardens in front of their home, just enjoying the towns natural beauty; they were so friendly too, nearly everybody I drove past stopped to smile and wave, obviously not in a hurry to get anywhere either. It was the opposite of Starlight Shores; it boasted a natural beauty and its residents didn’t try to boast a bigger better home with more shiny gadgets than their neighbours, everybody seemed so friendly and laid-back they weren't rushing from point A to point B yelling at everybody in their way; I was going to like it there a lot.

When I finally pulled up to the house, I just couldn’t believe it was mine; it was incredible. It stood out from the rest of the houses in town, though it blended so well at the same time, it’s what I had loved about it looking at the pictures online, and like the rest of the town it was even better than the pictures. It felt like home before I even parked the car, I didn’t need any time to adjust, I was just happy to be there; maybe it was just the fact that I knew it was where I was settling down for a very long time because that was what I wanted more than anything. For the most part the twins settled in right away as well, but they did cry sometimes at night for daddy or for one of their aunties or uncles, it was a relief over the next few months as those nights became less frequent, at least the cries for daddy still broke my heart every time, I dreaded the day I really had to explain to them that he just abandoned them and I didn’t know where he was, I knew how’d they’d feel and it wasn’t a good feeling at all.

It did take a while to adjust to a quiet house when the twins were sleeping; I’d never known what it felt like to have that quiet time, it was wonderful but a bit scary at the same time, it just seemed so unnatural at first that I often wondered if something was actually wrong. I tried to make the most of those quiet moments, doing the things I found relaxing to do. Mostly I found that I liked to write in that time, especially about my experiences in moonlight falls, it seemed to help to get it out of my mind and onto paper, like a dairy . I decided at some point I liked that idea; the dairy of girl trapped in another world full of dangerous creatures she never thought could be real.  Nobody would ever believe any of it could be true, but it would be a change from the same old stories of all those spooky creatures going bump in the night. It didn’t really matter if anybody believed it, there were still times I didn’t even believe it, I’d just be happy if it was actually published.

When I was struggling to meet the deadlines I’d set for myself, I would hire a babysitter for the day and take my laptop out to one of the viewing areas, Redwood Park, and work there. I couldn’t ask for better children really, the twins were so quiet and well behaved and great at not bugging mommy when she was writing, but it was still nice to not have to worry looking after them at all for a few hours. I found it easier to write up there; it was just so peaceful and beautiful, so serene, that it was really hard to feel any pressure up there it was easy to just relax and let the words flow. Nobody else ever went up there, though I really didn’t understand why, I liked it that way and it’s what was better about going there than anywhere else. At least there was never anybody else there, until he showed up.

12/22/2012

From Farm to Fame- Haylie: Chapter Sixteen


It was weird to be home, almost like it wasn’t really home at all. Perhaps it just seemed so normal compared to the last several months of my life in Moonlight Falls, actually it seemed more normal than anything had since the fire in Twinbrook and it had been years since, definitely more normal than anything since I found out my mother was a vampire and since having my fiancĂ© brought back to life. Those aren’t normal things, or they didn’t feel like they should be, but it did seem normal somehow; like the scary stories we grew up with that I had been living out were normal, and we should be telling our children stories about normal human beings with no special powers, who die and stay dead instead of turning into strange creatures, who play in the sun in the middle of the dead instead of fighting with each other and torturing the weak at night… they would be the scary stories of another world that nobody would ever believe. Perhaps it was just how much had changed since I left. It was clear right from the moment I walked in the front door that almost everything had changed while I was gone. I knew it had, I talked to my siblings over the phone while I was gone, but it was suddenly so real.

Ian was finally finished his training and was working for the police department. He was still living in the house and had been taking care of the twins, but he lived there with his girlfriend. Who also happened to be his partner on the police force. Something about her bothered me, though I couldn’t figure out what; but he seemed happy, happy enough that he wanted to propose to her, so I was happy for him.

Nate had gone off to university to study medicine and follow in dad’s steps. He wanted to work at the children's hospital, and I knew it’d be the perfect place for him. He was such compassionate person, and just like dad it would bring him so much joy to be able to help heal people, it was perfect for him. He had a great sense of humour that could make anybody laugh, and he was great with kids, he’d always be able to make them feel comfortable. He too had found himself a girlfriend at the university, she sounded like a really sweet girl who was just perfect for him. I was especially happy for him, he was so shy especially around women, I’d wondered if he’d be alone forever.

Elizabeth was touring as the opening act for a band that I’d never heard of, and trying to make it in the music world. She had a beautiful voice and a true talent for any instrument she picked up, she would be amazing. I just hoped the rest of the world would see it too, since they don’t always see past the top 40 hits to know what else is really out there. I’d always be her fan, no matter who else was.

Nobody really knew what Merissa was up to, she’d moved in with some guy she met online, and seldom talked to anybody else. Just the occasional call to say hi without really giving away any info about where she was or what she was doing; she was still the one who kept to herself and almost got forgotten about as a result. I worried about her and hoped she’d be okay, wherever she was.

The twins had grown so much, I couldn’t even believe it. I’d missed so much, and I wanted to cry when I first saw them, it hurt to think about how much I missed. Their squeels of excitement shouting “Mommy” as I walked in warmed my heart, but hurt at the same time; I didn’t really understand why they were excited to see me, I’d wondered if they’d even really remember me… they were just so young, and I missed so much that it felt like I’d never really been there at all. It was the cries for daddy that hurt most though; I couldn’t explain it to them even if I could understand it myself. I wanted them to have their daddy, but I didn’t know if I could forgive him either if there ever was an opportunity for us to reconcile. I hated that he just abandoned us, especially them. I wondered what would have happened if my siblings hadn’t been there to watch over them. Would he still just have left them? I couldn’t trust that he wouldn’t. I still hadn’t heard from him or seen him at all, but I heard rumours back at home about how he’d already moved on. That hurt too, I knew though the words had never been said that we were over, it’s what he wanted and it had become what I wanted, but it hurt that he couldn’t even own up to it before moving on.

Starlight shores definitely wasn’t home anymore, it didn’t feel like home. Not that I’d ever liked Starlight Shores, I’d really only stayed for Chase, but almost everything that ever made it tolerable was gone or just too different. So one more time I was leaving. I just wanted to settle down somewhere with my children; somewhere we could be happy and successful. My siblings, for the most part, had accomplished so much with their lives, I hadn’t accomplished anything. I couldn’t just keep wasting my life away, I wanted to settle down and make something of my life; I had to so I could give my daughters a good life. I decided to move to Hidden Springs. It looked beautiful in pictures, and it seemed so calm and peaceful. It would be a nice place for a fresh start.