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7/23/2012

From Farm to Fame: Haylie- Chapter Nine

I rambled on in a drunken rant about whatever happened to be on my mind, the whole car ride, not paying attention or caring to pay attention to where we were actually going. I certainly wouldn't have any secrets left, not that I had kept many from Bryon anyway. I didn't notice we weren't going home, but rather the completely opposite direction, until I stopped talking long enough to pay attention because I had run out of things to say. "Where are we going? This isn't how we get home."

"I just want to make an extra stop along the way."

"This isn't along the way. I know I'm drunk, but I'm not stupid. Home is that way." I pointed back behind us. "This, is a totally different direction."

"Okay, then it's a detour. You're fussy when you're drunk."

"I'm not being fussy, I just want to know where the hell you're taking me and you're not being at all helpful."

"It'll just be a couple minutes, and we'll be there."

"Why can't you just tell me?"

"It's a surprise."

"What the hell kind of surprise could you possibly be taking me to at midnight? Take me home!"

"Your brother put crazy ideas in your head didn't he?"

"Well, I thought they were crazy ideas, now I'm not so sure. Take me home."

"No."

"Then pull over. I'll call Ian to get me, or I'll walk. Just let me out of this car."

"Would you settle down? We're there anyway."

I looked around out the windows, in 3 directions there seemed to be nothing at all, and in the last direction was the graveyard. We were all alone, aside from the people buried under the dirt."The graveyard... Seriously. You're just getting creepier."

He remained totally calm, while my panic just grew."You need to say your good-byes, so you can move on. You're holding back your feelings. You need to just let them out. You seem to be really good at letting things out right now too."

"You know you suck at surprises, right? Please just take me home now. I still don't want to be here."

He'd walked around to the passenger side of the car, and dragged me out of it."I didn't say it was a good surprise. You need to be here, want to or not. I know you don't want to be here, it's not something anybody wants to do. I'm trying to figure out how to help you, I think this will help at least a bit."

"I'm not ready to say good-bye yet. Please take me home."

He started yelling, probably in frustration. "It's been a year since that stupid Chase guy died, longer since Merissa died. It's time Haylie, it was time a long time ago."

"Don't yell at me!"

He was calm again when he spoke. "I'm sorry, but it's true. It's time. Now come on. I'll be right beside if that's what you want, or I can stay right here, but nobody's leaving until you give at least make an effort."

"No, no. Please.... don't.... just take me home." I couldn't help the tears of fear that had been building the whole ride, suddenly from the fear of what I didn't want to face in the graveyard rather than the fear of what Bryon was up to.

Bryon just pulled me back up again and pulled me into a hug. "Why are you scared? I know it's hard, but you need to do this. You need to let go. It's only a part of life."

"I don't want to let go, I do want to lose my memories too. I don't want to just forget the people I cared about."

"You won't. You'll always have memories, you'll never forget them. You have children with Chase, you'll still remember him all the time because of them. You'll remember your sister and growing up with her. You'll remember your dad, fights and all how much he looked out for you and how much you respected him for that." He grabbed my hand and pulled me through the gate. "Come on, It'll be okay."

I pulled my hand free, though he had it it so gently that it didn't take much, but I didn't turn around to go back. I wanted to, but I knew he was right. "I don't know what to do."

"Just say whatever's on your mind, don't hold anything back. Don't be afraid to look like a fool or anything. Just let it all out." I reached out to grab his hand again and dragged him along with me. It made me feel safer and stronger to be able to feel him close to me, and know that he wasn't more than an arm length away.

I stop first at Chases grave, where I felt the urge to just turn around again. I wasn't supposed to say good-bye to him, we were supposed to get married and have a life together. It didn't seem right to say good-bye before we could even make it down the aisle, or before he could see his children. "I can't do this. I can't..."

"You made it this far, don't give up now."

I nodded, I didn't really plan on doing anything. Just faking it. I wasn't ready to say good-bye. There was never supposed to be good-bye. There was supposed to be a wedding and future together as husband and wife. Not a funeral and a future of loneliness."I think It'll be easier if you aren't standing right beside me. Ex-boyfriend, and dead fiancĂ©... seems really awkward."

I heard his footsteps trail off behind me, so I was startled when somebody else spoke. I should have know better, it was mom, of course she would be there. Just to bother me. "You know you it's not a good idea to fake it right? That boy is right, you need to move past all of this, not cling to the things you can't change. Of course... If you can change it... then you really don't have to worry about it."

"Oh my god mom, don't make anybody else a vampire."

"That's not what I meant. Here." She held out a box. "This may help. I've tried many times, and nothing happens for me, but perhaps it will work better for you. You are more deserving, you are a good girl, who's just very lost right now. I know you'll make good use of this if it will let you." hesitated to take it, not trusting her, but the curiosity was too tempting. If there was anyway to change all that had happened, I wanted to know what it was. "Good luck sweetie." She winked and vanished. I still hated her doing that.


I looked over where Bryon was standing looking very confused. I should probably have gone to explain to him, but I really didn't know how. I tried to smile and give him a thumbs-up to reassure him it was okay. He didn't seem too convinced, of course how could I reassure him when I couldn't reassure myself. I closed my eye's an turned my head as I opened the box. Nothing happened. I looked inside. It was a lamp, like the one a genie would live in on television. Well, vampires existed, why not genies? I still tried not to get too excited as I rubbed it, and jumped when something really did come out of it.


She looked and sounded very bored, but I would be too trapped inside a lamp. "You have 3 wishes. What is your first?"

I thought about it for several minutes, remembering the moral to be careful what you wish for. I didn't want to waste wishes either. It was probably too much to expect one wish to bring everybody back, but it was worth a try. "I wish that I could bring back to life, everybody I know and love that has died."

She looked angry, obviously I wasn't getting that wish. "Do not be greedy. I will let this one slide, next time you lose a wish. Now try again, and be quick."

Well, at least I still had enough wishes to bring everybody back, it would just be hard to choose who was most deserving of the chance to come back first. I wanted to think about it, but I could see his impatience growing, and blurted out the name that was on my mind already. "Okay, Chase! I wish for Chase to be alive again."

"Granted." I watched in disbelief as she waved her arms in a flashy light show and Chase appeared in front of me. "Now, I must rest before I can grant another." She vanished in a cloud of smoke, back to her lamp.

I really didn't care, I was too excited to have Chase standing in front of me. "Oh my god, Chase!" I threw myself around him, clinging as tight as I could. "Don't ever do that again."

"Trust me, it was never in my plans to leave you, and I'm never doing so again."

"You better not."

We eventually made our way home, to wait out the time for the next wish. It was a long ride trying to explain to Bryon what was going on, and he didn't seem too happy with Chase there. I knew it wouldn't be fair to stay with him any longer, so in the morning I went back to stay with my siblings. Not that they were any happier to see Chase, but they were delighted with the news that they'd get people they loved back too, and surprisingly unsurprised about how. Though it did lead into an argument over who would get to come back. I'd forgotten that to them 3 people were still dead, and there were only 2 wishes left. I didn't know how to, or want to, explain to them about mom or anything... and left them with the lamp for the genie to tell them no.

It was decided to bring Merissa back for Elizabeth's benefit, as she had struggled the most with that and everything since.

Dad was the other, since he was the one everybody missed most. Everybody had plenty of time to move past mom's death, if they even remembered her at all. That wish was also not granted, he had accepted his fate and we couldn't undo his wishes for ours. I felt bad that they couldn't get somebody else back too, but everybody seemed happy enough with what they did have, just happy to have something.